Well, Being Deliberate just got a whole lot more necessary.
I went into the doctor's office last week, thinking I had some minor infection or bug. Not any big deal, and I'd debated stoping by the open clinic at all or riding it out. Ten minutes in the doctor's office and I was being told I had Type 1 Diabetes (sometimes called Juvenile Diabetes, or Insulin-Depended Diabetes). Obviously, this is why I've been MIA the previous week; the next few days were doctor's visits.
Let's preface this by saying, there are a whole lot worse things one can be told in a doctor's office, harder diseases or conditions to be living with. But it is something that is going to constitute some pretty major life-changes. It doesn't look, on the outset, that hard really. In many ways, the best ways to manage Diabetes seems to be healthy living- eating balanced and nutritious meals, and daily exercises, plus all the healthy appointments you are supposed to do but people totally don't always make (c'mon. You have always gone to the dentist twice a year? What insurance do you have?). Well, and the insulin. And the testing your blood. Four times daily. But it is all with a slight twist- healthy for diabetes isn't the same as for everyone else. And it precludes almost all of my favorite foods. I love bread, and pasta, and dairy, and beef, and (though not healthy) beer and sweet things. Even fruits and veggies are things to be careful about! It's not that I can't have any, exactly, so I probably shouldn't be bummed, but very regulated. Well, let us say "all things in moderation" if we want to be positive. But let me tell you, food and I are having a very complicated love-hate relationship at the moment. I miss feeling in control of such things, of being able to choose what I want to eat, when I want to eat it.
And, beyond food and other such things, there will be other changes and things to consider down the road.
The thing is- the silver lining- is I can choose to think of it as a way to be deliberate in my actions, to live a more deliberate life.
I only found this out two weeks ago. Obviously, I don't know all there is to know about living with this disease. And in a similar vien, I ask that you be kind in your comments. Though I am happy for them, stories of others' success in living with diabetes (or other conditions), and/or advice are not particularly desired at this time. I debated even mentioning this here, but ultimately decided that for a personal style blog, the personal- the honesty and the vulnerability of everyday life- should come into things. I am sure the trust placed in you will not go unrewarded in your kindness towards me and towards other readers.